Unfortunately by the time I was diagnosed I had a Stage three tumour that had left the primary site and spread to my surrounding lymph nodes. I was supposed to have six months of chemotherapy but I got so sick and lost so much weight (I dropped down to 40 kgs) I had to have a break, so my chemotherapy ended up being spread over nine months.
Psychologically I ended up having a mental breakdown. I used to work all week, have chemo on Friday afternoons, go to bed for the weekend then go back to work on Monday. I felt under enormous pressure to support my two children and believed that I had let them down. I felt as though I was a burden on them by being so sick. I thought if I died, they would have at least receive some financial help. I was lucky to have a lot of emotional support from my family at this time… they were wonderful.
I’m happy to say I’m now a survivor and my life is great. I have a two amazing children and I am now remarried. My message to anyone going through this disease is - this is about you and its ok to feel scared or depressed at times. Don’t feel pressured to be constantly positive, and let people help you.